Sunday, September 30, 2007
it has been so long since i have blog. promos is here ALREADY. god, it feels like post-promo. HAHA. especially after econs and gp paper. chinese is over. 3 down and 2 more to go! (phy is not a paper, more like worksheet. haha)
recent study sessions is fine. econs paper is kind of disastrous. gp paper make me feel a little sad. chinese paper make me drift. bad bad bad. i want to score well for math. but always feel like doing chem. weird.
have been feeling emo. emo. emo.
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i think i will die before i am 21.
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12:57 AM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Wednesdays is no longer those days that i look forward to. cant go off at 1.30 anymore. so sad. Was very very hungry just now after math. my only break was like five hours ago. tothemax HUNGRY!was doing up ''poh's little book'' and im really surprise that they could come up with such idea. im really defeated by them. haha. at kovan, we ate pizza hut, and we had a lot of fun. haha. guess what, we played with a piece of chicken from the pizza, mix it with coke, pepper, chilli, cheese, liquid cheese, some other sauce i dont remember. i swore it was damn gross. we played zhong ji mi ma, and the loser shall eat. the small piece of chicken was split into 4. which means all of us, get equal chances of eating one of the digusting food. oh well, i didnt get to taste it. so is tingting. but according to bryan, its the look like turn them off, not the taste. haha. i feel lucky today. then back in school, we studied in the library. cheryl came to join us, and i feel bad to let her sit alone. in the end, my helpline and me shift to her table, leaving personal space for darren and teresa. things didnt work out you see. darren left the table for locker and came back with a guy. oh, so darren preferred a guy? haha, poor teresa. bad darren. :Dsigh. i should be studying. oh, still have to do eom. boring. huua said, if were to retain, also must retain with some good friends. haha, hope not la. hope miracle happens and both of us promote. study huua!
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10:17 PM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Havent been blogging quite some time, cause i cant find time to. Have been studying in school every evening, and by the time i reach home, i'll be like very dead. Too lazy to move, even to pour myself a glass of water. Today have been quite productive, did like 2 questions for d2, with UNDERSTANDING. produced at optimum capacity, am i right? credits to tingting! (: Had lotsa of fun mimicking mr quek : Ladies and gentleman, yes, you got it. Have been feeling very unwell these days. VERY GIDDY. could it be due to earthquake! haha. huua was random, she told us something like, ''there's earthquake today, am i going to die''. haha, thanks to all these headaches, i found a very good reason to sleep in class. a way that you can rest assure that nobody is going to scream at you for sleeping in class. oh, am i being a bad influence? haha. i was in sleep mode for the whole day.someone was tempting me to eat long john's. i really wanted salsa cheese fries, but stayed in sch because it's 8 more days to promos! when i reach home, my dad offer to buy me macdonald's! no ljs, mac can be a good substitutes! demand for fastfood is cross elastic? yesyes, i must MUG. (: thanks for wishing me good luck for promos, people. (: i hope you guys can do well too! best of luck for whatever you're taking. nights.
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11:24 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Okie, promos is coming. Didnt realise until that day someone told me. it's like about 13 days more. Madness.
These few days have been trying to study for promos after sch with huua they all, hoping that i will be enlighten much. And we had been trying to de-stress by going to the playground nearby after our study sessions. had been quite fun. and these people who i got to know recently, makes me feel like in beatty. where sch is somewhere we have fun and study at the same time. haha.
this morning i was damn irritated by some shit. first, the bus driver didnt want to let me up on the bus, when he OBVIOUSLY saw me. okie, because of that, i walked all the way to boonkeng. My bag was damn heavy la. then i saw zhaoxuan on the escalator, and the train is reaching in TWO mins. then i remembered i need to top-up value for my ezlink, he was like rushing me la. almost didnt make it for the train. haha. then reach sch, nobody want to move in front. only fad and maykee in front. all the guys are acting like girls like that, hide behind like they're so shy. please, act like a guy can. okie, then there was a gap in between fad and maykee, also between maykee and me. when i turn behing, neo was like staring with the kind of look he always give. damn irritating. and he said something that kind of pissed me off. so, whats with not moving in front. whats so big deal that he need to kick a big fuss over. crazyman. kind of hate seeing him everyday. yucks.
things became better, when all i remember is that i kept laughing. didnt go for econs and lunch with cheryl. Okie, they agreed with me, that our class have 15 aunties and 7 girls. no guys at all. how great right.
dunno what is wrong with me these days, like feeling irritated very easily. this is bad. am i smiling less and frowning more?
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10:30 PM
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Havent been blogging for quite a long time, simply felt too lazy to do so. haha. these few days of holidays is sooo short. and i had obviously not made full and good use of it. die man, PWF,F,F,F. i seriously think i should get mentally prepared to retain. woke up with a terrible headache today, felt like dying. didnt turn up for the duck race thingy, didnt go study with huua they all, everything didnt turn out well. yesterday went town with them to celebrate my belated birthday. these people whom i miss alot. esp eileen chan and yating. oh yes, leeyen too. really havent been seeing them for a long long time. suddenly remind me of the days we had in beatty. the moment i saw lion and leen, i wanted kbox badly! yating too, i always felt like crying when i see her. haha. bad yating, always make me cry. ze an as usual, very spastic. alvin who never slim down much or not AT ALL. teck khang getting more and more ah beng. aaron, with his new hair colour. together with yinzhi. not forgetting huua and him (:thanks to you people who spent time with me last evening.and thanks for trying to make all these a surprise. its so unfortunate that i found out. (cant help being smart)i've enjoyed the day, and i felt sorry that he didnt.to ben who said something like - ***** go then i go. THANKS FOR BEING SUCH A GOOD FRIEND TO ME. and to those who dont give a damn, THANKS FOR NOT COMING. for those who was unable to make it, never mind. there's still next year (: sch is starting again. dread it. hate it. loathe it. *let out a long sigh*
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9:42 PM
Sunday, September 2, 2007
i cant believe he could say it so many times. i tried to ignore, simply treating him as an idiot. this is really too much. i guess he failed to understand how much those words hurt. i always wonder will he regret treating me like that. i guess not, i dont need such a person in my life. if now at this very moment, i walk out on the street and get knock over by a car, die on the spot, i would be better off. he wouldnt care. to him, im just nothing. just somebody to yell at when he gets upset, somebody to insult when he simply feels like it, somebody who dont worth his love, just like a maid who he can order around. if he doesnt treat me as family, why should i? he thinks that he is the smartest who knows everything, have all the rights, and when he gets upset, the whole world owes him a big deal. just what is so good about you? to me, nothing, nothing worth mentioning. if i am useless, how much are you better than me. have you shown concern to the folks at home, or at least try to talk to them more. share happiness with them, or rather us? you're just behaving like an individual, one who doesnt need family. all you need is your love. alright, only she is true and cares about you. whatever, who gives a damn.
all along, i shown you respect, tried to talk to you, hoping to close up the gap with you, but what have you done? seriously, what have you done for me, and for us. think. what is so good about you that you can insult people in such a way. you are far from being perfect, you certainly in no position to say that. so what if you're alr in uni, so what if you're older, what's so great about it? you can be in your own world for all i care, thinking that everyone must give in to you. i wont bother. i'll just get on with my own life, do whatever i want, like you never exist.
thank you for being such an asshole today. i appreciate that.
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12:31 PM
