Friday, August 31, 2007
today's concert in school was enjoyable. generally a good one i guess. the girls was so sweet to have cut birthday cake with me. thank you girls! then rushed off to beatty to meet the teachers.it kind of feel good to be back there where everything is still so familiar. but, theres some changes made i guess. the central area got more trees. haha. oh yarh, and the moment we got there, we went to canteen to buy drink. the auntie still recognise us! and she still remember i love just tea peach. it just feels good.
then saw yating when we went up to library. oh my god. she gave me a hug and i burst into tears. how i miss her! then 6 of us meet up - jzeying, kelly, yating, yhih huua, val and me. samantha overslept! haha. and simin can only go off at 1. how sadd. sisterhood not completed.
we spoke with mdm ong, mr lee, ms lim, mrs Ltan, and mr quek who taught us alot (im really sorry that i dropped art). haha. after which we had lunch together and val showed us what wonders her phone can do. jzeying's can do it too! i want a samsung phone!
SEE! she's thinking of yating!
Val + yating = ME?
haha. i love the last one. arent we cute? (i know we are!)
too bad they've got something on, if not we could carry on taking more pictures. haha. sooooo saddd. then i went home and slept half the day 'away'.
Actually, today has not been THAT wonderful. the whole day i felt like crying. even during the concert. last night i have been missing my mum. just when is she coming back. what happened today made it worse for me.
i cant believe how unimportant i became. felt so insignificant and so depressed. today turn out to be the opposite of what i had expected. i would have cried to death if not for him. he gave me a nice treat of ice-cream that managed to cheer me up a little. at least someone in the world still cares.
actually what i wanted is really simple. just that nobody knew.
a happy seventeenth birthday.
pray that tomorrow will be better. nights.
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9:11 PM
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Haha, this is fun.You are 65% emotional....
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11:44 PM
Today had a longggg day, but at least i remained a happy girl. the econs leture on durians and papayas was hilarious. and i became high for quite a long time after the lecture. went for dinner with cheryl and alvaNEH(xiaoming?).
Tommorow im going back to beatty with sr-beattyians. haha, super excited over it. hope all 4e4 ppl will be there. but i heard that the teachers all had to go off at eleven. WHY! teachers, pleassse wait for us k. Hope can see them still. haha.
the teachers have been stressing us with the countdown to promos!. 28 days to promos!. Oh nooooooooooooooooooooooo. seriously need to buck up. i dont want to retain! cause the three quarter's, Bermudas and the ite-alike shirt looks ugly,and awful to the max. i do feel sad for JC1s next year. so in conclusion, retain = die.
Oh yarh, i need to do my chem eqm now, if not tomorrow i'll will have a date with ms tan. haha, thanks to cheryl who sabo-ed me. okie, dont worry im not mad at you. i just knew you love me too much. i understand, so dont feel bad alright. haha.
how greaatt, first question of the tutorial and im already stucked.
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9:25 PM
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Today was a typical sch day, nothing special happened.but, now i feel damn bad. when i was on my home after dinner just now. i wasnt really taking notice of what was on the pathway and my feet brush across a snail. its a SNAIL!. then i turned back and came to realise that i just crushed a fragile life. okie, i am SO guilty that i was eating ice-cream and being so distracted when walking. i blame myself for walking on the streets at night like that. i hate myself for walking that dark lane. and i just want to atone for my grave mistake. but how. i cant possibly put the snail back into one piece now. i feel bad. really really bad. arghh, no mood to do anything else.
im sorry, snail.
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9:02 PM
Monday, August 27, 2007
today has been a bad day. cause i just feel very annoyed, right from the moment i wake up. maybe its due to the fact that my hair is causing me trouble keeping it tidy. or maybe there's simply no reasons for that. well, its just the starting of the week and im already feeling irritated by the slightest things. can say goodbye to the rest of the days alr. haha.today thought of some of the crazy ideas. like giving someone some SPECIAL gift on that particular day. hahahs. its going to be damn fun. the thought of it will just make me burst into laughter.
im feeling damn tired now, and really cant make myself focus in studying for the econs drq test tomorrow. GG. im afraid i will sleep. haha. and i went to tried the nerd quiz today and found out about these. maybe you should try it too.
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8:35 PM
Sunday, August 26, 2007
i always thought i am quite girly until i tried this quiz. Haha. You are 47% girly!
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Haha, this is so unexpected.
You are 34% Emo. Ha Ha!
Whiner baby.
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Haha, i just knew it. i'm still a little angel.
You are 37% Bittch!
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8:01 PM
i just had a haircut, and im really looking uglier than usual. i swear i will never go there again. godd, how am i going to face the world like this.
Oh yarh, last night i had a dream about me carrying a shih-tzu home. guess what, the shih-tzu has a pair of cinnamoroll ears. it was damn cute. and mum was carrying another dog, which i cant remember what is it. anyway its just a dream, mum will never allow a dog at home, let alone two. i just kept wondering, was that a good dream? who knows, maybe dad will strike lottery tonight. haha.
check this out? its damn cool. hello kitty credit card. the sad thing is you must be 18 and above to apply. hope they will come up with some cinamoroll credit card soon. haha.
http://www.sanrio.com/credit_card/
today's meeting with sisterhood has been postponed. how sadd. next week im having an econs drq test which im not at all prepared for yet. and i always had this bad feeling that im not going to pass my promos. arghh. my headache is back again. how greattt.
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1:33 PM
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Just now when i was sorting out my photos, i found this photo. suddenly get more and more unhappy with my hair now. aww, i want my fringe again. and just when will my hair grow back to the same length that i used to have. i want it permed! come to think of it, i used to hate my hair for being wavy and insisted in having a rebond. and now, when i want it to be wavy again, it seem straight. and my mum said my hair behaves when i want to have a haircut, oh that's funny.
today went to study with huua and aaron. an unsuccessful attempt again, partly because its simply hard to concentrate with aaron around, and also thanks to my bad headache for the whole afternoon. so, we went to ntuc and spend almost 1 hour buying SOME STUFFS and went home after that.
time pass so fast that i just realise its 6 more days to my birthday. Haha. and we're allowed to go back to beatty! lol, looking forward to that. miss those days that we were in beatty. neverending fun mocking kb, and will never forget those expression of the girls when we associate xr with them (esp samantha) , yw's jokes, yulin's randomness, alvin's madness, and miss slacking in choir. eileen, i miss you! and qy too.
i feel so lifeless. ever since i came to jc, i havent been going to kbox after sch, go to town and waste time, hang out in tpy to snack, and chatting with friends on the phone like i used to, randomly sitting around and bitch non-stop. oh my, i miss hearing yating's angelic voice.
Finally, can meet up with sisterhood tomorrow. hope everyone turn up. then we can have fun eating together, like what we always do every recess. see ya, girls. nights.
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10:17 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007
Everything is back in place. Now everyone is getting along well. thank god!. hahs. today suppose to go eat sakura buffet with the beatty people but huua cant make it. so, alvin suggest that we dont meet. in the end, alvana, cheryl, yolander ( did i spell it correctly? ) and XIAOMING and i went to eat fries and icecream at mac. and yes, it's fattening. worse still, i just ate a bowl of noodles when i came home. right now, i can feel myself weighing heavier than what i weigh four hours ago. Arghh, i need to jf jf!.
Yay!. my dad has agreed to let me buy the red ipod nano, but have to wait until next month i guess cause brother just bought laptop. but who cares as long as i dont have to save up myself to get it. haha. just knew it, hes the best!
was flipping through the calendar, and realised its 33 days to promos. OH GODDD. i feel so dead. THIS IS SO PWF! okie, what if i cant promote. or what if i advanced and dont do well, then flunk my A's. then i might not have the chance to take A's again. end up in poly with some course im unsure of. then always occupied with endless projects and tutorials. go bonkers one day, and end up in some mental hospital.
this is when i start to think of what i wrote in my gp essay today. is the pursuit of paper qualifications detrimental to the entrepreneurial spirit?. i should have wrote: yes it is, it makes people go bonkers before even they come to the entrepreneurship stage. okie, this isnt funny. im going crazy.
*i just want to pass promos.
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8:15 PM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
These few days had been disastrous. It just people feel terrible to see things becoming like this. Nobody is at fault and this is so sudden. Haha.I guess i could understand how she felt, since i have already been through these. she could have feel like there's no point going to school, dont wish to talk anymore or make herself isolated from the rest. (that's pretty close to what i did in the past). dont wish to see it carry on like this. i believe it takes a lifetime to find a bossom friend. if you think she mean something to you, stop being stubborn. it takes two hands to clap. but if one hand doesnt move, the other hand has got nothing to clap with, isnt it? hope both of them will make up real soon.
just had my chem SPA today. afterwhich i felt like dying. i made the same mistake for FOUR times. and wasted dunno how many thousand years to make the water level in the burette to 50.00cm cube. but was generally quite pleased with myself for being able to remember and write all the 6 errors. haha. just that if only i was a bit more careful, i would have enough time to finish my graph. OP was fine, even though i felt that we were not quite prepared. Oh my god, there's GP essay test tomolo! almost forgotten about it. haha. im going to do research now.
everything is okie for now, just hope that it will be just as well in the future, or at least tomolo's test. please wish bless me luck, thank you. XP
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8:18 PM
Monday, August 20, 2007
I got very upset over the obvious scratches on my watch this morning. And now a little heartache. i dont know what i should do, to make my life better in school. Things werent the way i used to think, when school is what i look forward to everyday. Some things just doesnt seem right. unfathomable people. i just couldnt tell if you're good or bad. everyone appears sincere. this is too much for me to take. It's frightening.
how i wish to know, am i really a friend to you?
almost gotten over it. thank you so much for the lesson learnt.
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8:33 PM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
I suddenly feel the need to get an ipod seriously. But mum says i've already got mp3 and she insist that i shouldnt buy. It seems that i must really get rid of my LEmon before i can get it. I dont think selling it will work, but there dont seem any other solution. How i wish i can throw it down from the sixth storey now. so that i can get a new one. haha. Desperate for the red 8GB ipod, i hope god will let my dad strike lottery tonight and he will buy it for me even if i already have one. Please! Drop an ipod from the sky. I'll be real thankful. ;D
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6:03 PM
Friday, August 17, 2007
Today is generally a happy day, putting aside that i'm going to fail my maths quiz. In fact i begin to like school, suddenly. Know what. someone said that my watch is nice. Oh finally, a positive comment besides the ones made by my mum, which i think she probably said that to console me for not being able to get the white or black one. Or rather afraid that i will want to get another new one. Haha. I felt very satisfied with it, or at least for this moment of time, wont want to get a new one.
had enjoyed my tutorial classes, even during PW. haha, it was fun gossipping and bitching about someone (Awww, how evil). Odac has been fun, i was feeling super hyper then. Perhaps due to the fact that we just slack there, learning how to tie some knots. and today is manjing's birthday, the cake looked really tempting! but as much as how it looked tempting, it is also very f-a-t-t-e-n-i-n-g. it just turns me off when it associate with FATS.
Oh yesterday i just realized i hit 29 times entry for the maths aspire website. (in case you dont know it's under 'Tracking') I ranked sixth. ;D that is so encouraging. I will aim for the top, to show how studious i am. haha.
havent been meeting up with aaron and the clique these days. and still missing the girls. hope to meet up with them soon. Oh yarh, and i seriously need kbox.
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8:36 PM